Monday, February 8, 2010

James "Rhio" O'Connor Scholarship Essay

Some may say that I have had an easy life so far. My parents are still together and in love, I come from a white, middle-class family, and was encouraged to attend a university. Yet as I take a step back from my day to day routine and contemplate my life so far, I wouldn’t call it a cake walk. The challenges I have faced, although not as earth shaking as some, have formed me into the person I am today. I have struggled and learned in the classroom; I have dealt with my ethical stances in a public college that doesn’t agree with me; I have learned responsibility by living on my own.

Someone once told me that Good is the enemy of Great. This has always stuck close with me throughout my life thus far. Being complacent about doing a good job easily keeps you away from accomplishing extraordinary things. James “Rhio” O’Conner could have fallen into this very same trap. Hearing he had a year to live, he could have reflected on all that he had lived through and decided that he had lived a good life. He could have chosen chemotherapy and watched the last months of his life be swallowed by miserable pain. But he didn’t. He chose to step above what was expected. He rose to the challenge and pioneered new options by his extensive research and tenacity. He chose the road of Great and let the road of Good fade away in the rear view mirror.

O’Connor was diagnosed with mesothelioma, which is a cancer that attacks the linings of your organs, such as the pleura of your heart and lungs. The cells begin to uncontrollably divide and will invade and damage the tissue and organs around the cancerous area. The mesothelium, the lining, that is targeted protects organs and also produces a lubricant for organ movement. By damaging this, there can be friction because of a beating heart or expanding lungs which would cause shortness of breath, inflammation, and obvious pain.

During my junior year of high school, my aunt contracted non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma. It was the first way I had ever been touched by cancer and left a deep impression on me. I saw her go through all of the chemotherapy and the pain and sickness that caused. I also saw her as she went through stem cell replacement therapy. It was sickening to me to see her in so much pain when I could do nothing to help. During this time I often wondered what I would do in her situation.

If I were to contract a cancer such as mesothelioma, I would do everything within my knowledge and power to overcome my cancer. I would research and learn everything I could about the cancer itself and treatments available. I, with help from my family, would look in books, academic journals, talk to doctors I know personally and contact those that are specialists in the field.

I would choose to be a fighter because my life is not mine; it is God’s to give and take. Who am I to say I am ready to go before He does? Who are the doctors to number my days? The Lord will go before me and has my days ordained (Ps 139:16). I would rejoice in the opportunities given to me to impact lives around me and encourage others going through a similar battle. But I would not give up. Giving up would be succumbing to Good, to Okay. I choose Greatness. I choose to fight. I choose life.

There are too many beautiful things in this life to not fight for a chance to enjoy them: the feeling of sun on your face, the smell of the ocean, the birds’ song in the early morning, a baby’s laugh, chocolate truffles, a kiss, the feeling of loving support from your family, winter’s first snow, a parental hug, helping your own children on their wedding day, watching your own family grow through the generations. I would never give up on my opportunity to enjoy these things to the fullest. This life we have is so beautiful, and I want to enjoy every last drop.


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

A Mother's Radiance

Something beautiful happens when a woman truly embraces motherhood. Her focus shifts from herself to her children and family. There is no time for vanity and selfishness. Vanity is turned to virtue, self to selfless. This sacrifice of a mother has rewards in character and heart. Although the beauty of her youth may fade, the beauty of her virtue will illuminate her. And that, my dear friends, is the beauty that will last.


Sunday, July 12, 2009

Scones: Like a Muffin with Class

Since scones have become the favorite food of this food-fickle female, I thought I'd share my favorite recipe. I have a tendency to over do things until I've killed them, whether it's eating a particular thing, wearing something again and again, or doing an activity until it's no fun at all, but I'm being careful with these because I like them too much for that. (But just so you know, I know not whether they are truely proper or Scottish.)


Wednesday, May 20, 2009

I'd Like a Croissant Please

Where I learned most all of my French vocabulary :)


Monday, May 11, 2009

An Observation While Walking

I love how trees uproot the sidewalk.
 The Ent in them knows they are meant for something wilder, and they won't stand for it.


Tuesday, April 21, 2009


With boxed granola bars being so expensive and not all that tasty, I've been wanting to try my own for awhile. This was the first option and they are good. A little bit more like a glorified oatmeal cookie, they have incredible cinnamon nut flavor. Here's the original recipe. (I used almonds instead of pecans and raw oats instead of toasted this time.) Happy baking!

PS- Sorry about the angle, my computer skills can't quite put it in the correct rotation when uploading. And I would have put up a prettier picture of the actual cut squares except they cut a little rough, making them quite homely for photographing. 


Thursday, April 16, 2009

Carmina Burana

Last night I went and saw Carmina Burana for the first time, and those of you who are familiar with it can imagine my thrill. It was magnificent. When I was little I remember judging beauty of music by dancibility. Thank goodness tastes change, and now I can say that I would much rather listen classical music forever than the latest Miley Cyrus hit. There is something about choral music and a full symphony- cliches aside, it tickles and delights my ears more than anything else. The genius it takes to construct it is so intensive. It's complicated, it's long, it's a journey the composer leads you through. There is a definite sense of delayed gratification while you sit for an hour and a half or more. It takes patience, but the beauty is correspondingly deep. It's well worth it. 
I can honestly tell you that I've lost touch with pop culture. I don't know who's pregnant, engaged or making a comeback. The Office is even losing its appeal, but I know I'm gaining something that's far more precious: Less of an 'entertain me!' mindset. I now use a little more patience with my entertainment while still learning not to take life too seriously. I want less Brittany, more classical, more sunshine, more cheese, more laughter, more child's play, more baking, more fresh tilled earth, more gratitude for the grace all around me.

But so as not to take me too seriously in my musing, here's a little something from my reading that made me laugh out loud (If you have a good sense of humor and need a laugh, I highly recommend Alice in Wonderland. Alice is clever and practical, not at all like the ditz they have in the movie. But there isn't room to go there now): 

"You can draw water out of a water well," said the Hatter; "so I should think you could draw treacle out of a treacle well - eh, stupid?"

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